I don’t know if I’ll ever move past these feelings. I know, eventually, I’ll feel less angry, less frustrated and a little more normal but for now I’m sitting in “i told you so” and “you should have listened”.
Here’s my problem… I think that, when i speak, people who I’m talking to must say in their heads “she think she knows everything” but what they fail to notice is that i rarely speak unless i know EXACTLY what I’m talking about… Unless, of course, it’s to gain knowledge on something i don’t know. I’m rarely a bitch for bitches sake unless I’m extremely bored so when i come off as bitching it’s because i know what I’m talking about, you’re not listening and, eventually it’s going to effect me personally.
So my anger is because i bitched abd bitched for months and NO ONE LISTENED and now I’m stuck cleaning up a mess i tried, begged, screamed, to avoid.
It’s like telling someone, dude don’t park so close repeatedly until they inevitability hit something and hand you the bill.
Anyone who knows me knows I’m super reserved and only speak when i clearly need to.
Just an fyi, I’m gonna be in my feelings until I’m not. I will rant until such time as i feel whole again. I will get back to my serene place. I just wish i knew when.